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So lately it has not been the easiest. Some things have been going great, others not so much. First off, the YouTube thing is going very well right now, I'm finally bringing in money at a monthly pace, even without even uploading anything new for months. But at the same time, that saddens me... I haven't uploaded anything in forever. I remember back when I'd upload stuff every couple months, but I've never gone this far without publishing anything. I just feel so stressed out, I'm working on so many things and getting a lot sorted and figured out outside of the whole internet thing. I got the scripts done recently for the 3-part video I'm going to make, and most of the voices have been recorded, received and processed, but there's still a few more left to do... and redo. That's the most annoying thing, I feel like I can't exactly start a project until all of the audio is complete. Stresses me out when there's unfinished business. Once it's all done though, which BETTER BE SOON, I'll dive right into the animation. Very excited for that, it's been a while.

My PSU in my desktop just blew out on me for like the 6th fucking time in the last 2 years, so that's been fun. Have to use my laptop until the new one comes in, so I can't really do any rendering or recording until then. But I got tutorials I gotta make for a website, as well. Gonna be a big ol' fat commission check for that, and that'll be really good. But it adds to the stress levels, especially considering my COMPUTER IS BROKEN AGAIN AND I CAN'T DO THEM RIGHT NOW. It really sucks, I mean I got my computer to be REALLY powerful finally, it renders 1080p like air, barely taking up the rest of the system's resources. It's so sweet. But no, gotta wait to resurrect it from the catacombs...

The game? Game good. Game is good. Got the internet connection thing working, and it DOES connect to computers on a different internet connection completely (like, let's say you lived in New York and you wanted to play your friend who lived in California [I fucking HATE THAT STUPID STATE, FUCK CALIFORNIA {I'm sorry if you live in California and you're offended, I only sort of meant it}]), however the document requires a "policy file" or something? Been looking up tutorials and crap ALLOVER the world (literally, traveling on my winged-camel) but no luck yet. I'll get it sorted out eventually... but in the mean time, once again, I'll have to wait. I hate waiting. I hate it so much. I wait for everything. TIME IS SLIPPING AWAY, THERE'S NO TIME FOR WAITING!! But once that's over with, hopefully it'll get somewhere. REALLY goin' for the greenlight on Steam... hope it makes it. We will see.

Let's see, what else is on the garbage list? Uh... oh yeah, got REALLY sick a few days ago. Like, throwing up for an entire night, followed by the sunrise. Couldn't even sip water, I'd just throw that up as well, lol. I thought I'd have to be hospitalized and hooked up to an IV for a bit, that had to literally be one of the least comfortable things I've ever went through. Couldn't lay down without getting nauseated, didn't sleep, blah blah. I still have a bit of a headache, but that's about all that's left over. That sort of hindered the time I could have utilized to get some of this stuff done. Oh well.

Oh, I've been wanting to make a comic lately. Something I'd just upload pages of here-and-there. Got SORT of a plot figured out, but not really... still up in the clouds, AS USUAL. This keeps happening, I have an idea of something I want to do, and then... no, I can't think of anything to set it in stone. EVERY time. So many little bits and pieces of ideas, and nothing to tie it together. This occurs over the years, over-and-over again; novels, games, animated series, movie ideas... so many tiny little itsy-bitsy fragments of concepts, yet nothing to really bring them to reality... am I the only one with this problem?

You what else sucks about my mind? I get stressed out and antsy when I'm not working on this crap. If I'm not animating, working on the game, a script, editing audio or practicing whatever, I go into madness. Slowly, but surely. I just feel like things are passing me by and everyone's getting ahead while I'm getting stuck behind. I really just wanna do the whole work-hard play-hard thing, you know? But I can't seem to play hard ever. I just don't find entertainment in watching movies or playing video games for hours on end, sorry, assholes. Sorry I called you assholes, but that's directed to all the assholes that complain and bitch to me that I don't play enough video games or watch enough movies or dumb TV shows. Fuck you. t(._.t)

I guess that's it... I dunno, having so many inner conflicts, a lot of stress, problems, stuff scattered allover the place but never seems to go anywhere, I dunno... bleh.
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Ben Carswell
Artist | Hobbyist | Film & Animation
United States
Greetings, my name is Ben, but my alias around here is "Twisted4000". I am 19-years-old. I like to draw, create and animate cartoons, and a bit of music creation and voice acting if I need to. Other hobbies I have include knives, firearms and weapons in general, playing guitar, balisongs, and the outdoors (particularly forests).

Arrogance, conceitedness, pompousness, narcissism, I hate it all. But humbleness, modesty, and righteousness, all delight me.

Anyway, hope you enjoy my art. I'm not nearly as good as I want to be at this point, but every drawing I make is practice and gets me a step closer to my goal.

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jamesgunner123 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015
...happy birthday to you...=3
Twisted4000 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015  Hobbyist Filmographer
xiaonwa Featured By Owner Edited Feb 24, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
BIRTH HAPPY DAY! its your b day, its your b day. another year has passed and its your bday. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO FOR THE BDAY? also im a photographer so heres my best in drawing your characters with a a very simple form where i forgot the hair...and bodies. :D but the cakes not a lie
Twisted4000 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015  Hobbyist Filmographer
hahaha thanks
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Happy Birthday :D 
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CLXcool Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday!
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SecretBetweenTheWar Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015   Artist
happy birthday
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